I decided to take this entire weekend to grieve, cry, pout, and pray. Monday morning begins my prosecution process.  I hate it. It kills me that I have to do this. I hate it because on one hand in so incredibly grateful for A.L. for placing Brody in our lives.  On the other hand I'm furious/hurt/frustrated/confused. How could she look him in the eye and tell him his baby sister was coming to our family? Just tonight while snuggling me before bed he said to me, "mom, I want a baby sister."  I then explained to him in the best age appropriate way I know how that the baby sister he thought was coming, isn't."  Although I already told him this he doesn't understand.  My heart is broken for him, my other boys, my husband, and myself.  I'm not even sure where to go from here.


  1. I just got done reading your three posts, I had no idea you were going through this. I feel so many feelings right now, for you and your family, for the other moms, for all the families that support the three of you, and for the unborn child she is carrying. It is so unbelievable that another human being can do this to another. I have never been baby hungry, but lately it has been out of control how badly I want a little girl, but can't even tell anyone. I can only emagine how much pain you are going through. I love you and am here for you in any way I can be. I will pray for you and that God continues to give you peace and strength.

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